# Why I Set Up This Server for Physics Resource Websites
1. I feel deeply sorrowful as I write these words. Every time I recall those experiences, they pierce my heart sharply like a sharp sword.
2. When I applied for a job at this school years ago, I passed all written tests, interviews and physical examinations. However, relevant school staff found various excuses to eliminate me. They tried to curry favor with the wife of a physics teacher here, which meant I was of no value to them at all.
3. Later, after I spared no effort to get the position, some people tried to match me with the daughter of his cousin. I would never have turned them down if they had truly intended to hire me back then. Yet they blocked my way into the school at first, and only tried to take advantage of me when they needed help later.
4. I teach General Technology, a subject not included in the college entrance examination. For this reason, I was assigned to work in the physics laboratory, doing all the dirty and strenuous work. In the end, I could only get the minimum performance salary, and it was extremely hard for me to get professional title promotions.
5. I used to be an editorial board member of the journal *Teaching of Technical Physics*. Once a senior colleague called me for merely ten seconds, a call I have recorded, asking me to help his wife publish an academic paper. I had to agree for fear of being deliberately made things difficult for. I spent two months writing the paper and paid all the publication fees myself. I only hoped to win his favor so that I could take regular formal classes, but he broke all his promises the moment he got the finished paper.
6. After *Teaching of Technical Physics* stopped publication, I became even more marginalized. Later I took office as an editorial board member of *Experimental Teaching and Apparatus*, and those people attempted to make use of me again. Having learned a lesson, I only gave them the email address and official website of the editorial department.
7. When I first came here, there were no proper staff dormitories in the main campus. I had to stay in an idle student dormitory of Dongfang Middle School. In winter, cold wind howled through the door gaps, and the place was freezing cold in winter and sweltering hot in summer. After the dormitory was taken back, I had to sleep on the floor in the laboratory for a whole week. He finally arranged a dormitory for me in the main campus just to save his face and avoid inspection problems from superiors. The dormitory faced away from the sun, extremely cold in winter where clothes could hardly dry.
8. I once had a girlfriend. We used a heater to keep warm in the cold dormitory, which resulted in excessive electricity consumption. He publicly criticized me by name at the all-teachers meeting, saying that I should not misuse basic physics and electrical knowledge casually, otherwise it would cause fires and lead to serious accidents. All these remarks are recorded.
9. He even claimed that a family’s wealth depends on women in the household. He quoted a story from his hometown Liuqiao, saying that the daughter-in-law of a wealthy boss lived an extravagant life and used too much electricity, which would bring decline to the whole family. His words were clearly a veiled attack on my girlfriend.
10. He once warned me that he would drive us out of the school dormitory if we did not get married officially. We had no choice but to register our marriage in a hurry. Even so, we still faced unreasonable restrictions. He even forbade us from holding hands on campus. My girlfriend mostly stayed in the dormitory, and I never behaved improperly in public. I eventually realized that he just wanted to bully me and toy with my life.
11. To change the situation, I visited his hometown with my girlfriend twice. We sent fruits and flower baskets to visit his seriously ill mother, and also presented high-grade liquor to him, begging him not to pick on my girlfriend. I could endure all hardships myself, even sleeping on the lab floor, but I could not stand my girlfriend being wronged. I lived in constant fear back then and avoided him from afar like a mouse fleeing a cat. Eventually, all these sufferings led to our separation and the collapse of our relationship.
12. He sneered that I was useless and knew nothing about network technology while he thought he was proficient in it. Therefore, I made an oath that I would make full use of network technology to serve all physics learners and practitioners, and strive to boost the development of physics science and technology all over the world.
13. I have no abundant money now, yet I just want to prove that I still have practical value to the cause of physics education. Unlike those who have obtained full professor and senior special-grade teacher titles, sent their daughters abroad and hold idle official positions at home.
14. I have neither wealth nor social status, and devote most of my spare time to sorting out physics teaching resources. Since my ex-girlfriend left me, no other woman has been willing to stay with me, and almost no one can understand my aspirations. People around me only care about money, nothing but money.

**Name**: Liu Jinyi
**E-mail**: pentium_ljy@163.com
**Mobile Phone**: +8615351899686
**Address**: Tianxinghu High School, No.298 Zhenxing East Road, Economic and Technological Development Zone, Nantong City, Jiangsu Province, China
**Postal Code**: 226010